BEFORe this time I had great longing and desire of God's gift to be delivered of this world and of this life. For oftentimes I beheld the woe that is here, and the weal and the bliss that is being there: (and if there had been no pain in this life but the absence of our Lord, I thought it was some-time more than I might bear ;) and this made me to mourn, and eagerly to long. And also from my own wretchedness, sloth, and weakness, me liked not to live and to travail, as me fell to do.

And to all this our courteous Lord answered for comfort and patience, and said these words: Suddenly you shall be taken from all your pain, from all your sickness, from all your distress and from all your woe. And you shall come up above and you shall have me to your meed, and you shall be fulfilled of love and of bliss. And you shall never have no manner of pain, no manner of misliking, no wanting of will; but ever joy and bliss without end. What should it then aggrieve you to suffer awhile, seeing that it is my will and my worship?

And in this word: Suddenly you shall be taken, I saw that God rewards man for the patience that he has in abiding God's will, and for his time, and [for] that man lengthens his patience over the time of his living. For not-knowing of his time of passing, that is a great profit: for if a man knew his time, he should not have patience over that time; but, as God wills, while the soul is in the body it seems to itself that it is ever at the point to be taken. For all this life and this languor that we have here is but a point, and when we are taken suddenly out of pain into bliss then pain shall be nought.

And in this time I saw a body lying on the earth, which body showed heavy and horrible, without shape and form, as it were a swollen quag of stinking mire. And suddenly out of this body sprang a full fair creature, a little Child, fully shapen and formed, nimble and lively, whiter than lily; which swiftly glided up into heaven. And the swollenness of the body betokens great wretchedness of our deadly flesh, and the littleness of the Child betokens the cleanness of purity in the soul. And I thought: With this body abides no fairness of this Child, and on this Child dwells no foulness of this body.

It is more blissful that man be taken from pain, than that pain be taken from man; for if pain be taken from us it may come again: therefore it is a sovereign comfort and blissful beholding in a loving soul that we shall be taken from pain. For in this behest I saw a marvellous compassion that our Lord has in us for our woe, and a courteous promising of clear deliverance. For He wills that we be comforted in the overpassing; and that He showed in these words: And you shall come up above, and you shall have me to your meed, and you shall be fulfilled of joy and bliss.

It is God's will that we set the point of our thought in this blissful beholding as often as we may, and as long time keep us therein with His grace; for this is a blessed contemplation to the soul that is led of God, and full greatly to His worship, for the time that it lasts. And [when] we fall again to our heaviness, and spiritual blindness, and feeling of pains spiritual and bodily, by our frailty, it is God's will that we know that He has not forgotten us. And so signifies He in these words: And you shall never more have pain; no manner of sickness, no manner of misliking, no wanting of will; but ever joy and bliss without end. What should it then aggrieve you to suffer awhile, seeing it is my will and my worship?

It is God's will that we take His behests and His comfortings as largely and as mightily as we may take them, and also He wills that we take our abiding and our troubles as lightly as we may take them, and set them at nought. For the more lightly we take them, and the less price we set on them, for love, the less pain we shall have in the feeling of them, and the more thanks and meed we shall have for them.

AND thus I understood that what man or woman with firm will chooses God in this life, for love, he may be sure that he is loved without end: which endless love works in him that grace. For He wills that we be as assured in hope of the bliss of heaven while we are here, as we shall be in sureness while we are there. And ever the more pleasance and joy that we take in this sureness, with reverence and meekness, the better pleases Him, as it was shown. This reverence that I mean is a holy courteous dread of our Lord, to which meekness is united: and that is, that a creature sees the Lord marvellous great, and itself marvellous little. For these virtues are had endlessly by the loved of God, and this may now be seen and felt in measure through the gracious presence of our Lord when it is [seen]: which presence in all things is most desired, for it works marvellous assuredness in true faith, and sure hope, by greatness of charity, in dread that is sweet and delectable.

It is God's will that I see myself as much bound to Him in love as if He had done for me all that He has done; and thus should every soul think inwardly of its Lover. That is to say, the Charity of God makes in us such a unity that, when it is truly seen, no man can part himself from other. And thus ought our soul to think that God has done for it all that He has done.

And this shows He to make us to love Him and nought dread but Him. For it is His will that we perceive that all the might of our Enemy is taken into our Friend's hand; and therefore the soul that knows assuredly this, he shall not dread but Him that he loves. All other dread he setts among passions and bodily sickness and imaginations. And therefore though we be in so much pain, woe, and distress that it seems to us we can think [of] truly nothing but [of] that [which] we are in, or [of] that [which] we feel, [yet] as soon as we may, pass we lightly over, and set we it at nought. And why? For that God wills we know [Him]; and if we know Him and love Him and reverently dread Him, we shall have peace, and be in great rest, and it shall be great pleasance to us, all that He does. And this showed our Lord in these words: What should it then aggrieve you to suffer awhile, sith it is my Will and my worship?

Now have I told you of Fifteen Revelations, as God vouchsafed to minister them to [my] mind, renewed by lightings and touchings, I hope of the same Spirit that showed them all.

Of which Fifteen Showings the First began early in the morn, about the hour of four; and they lasted, showing by process full fair and steadily, each following other, till it was nine of the day, overpassed.

AND after this the good Lord showed the Sixteenth [Revelation] on the night following, as I shall tell after: which Sixteenth was conclusion and confirmation to all Fifteen.

But first me behoves to tell you as regarding my feebleness, wretchedness and blindness. I have said in the beginning: And in this [moment] all my pain was suddenly taken from me: of which pain I had no grief nor distress as long as the Fifteen Showings lasted following. And at the end all was close, and I saw no more. And soon I felt that I should live and languish; and anon my sickness came again: first in my head with a sound and a din, and suddenly all my body was fulfilled with sickness like as it was before. And I was as barren and as dry as [if] I never had comfort but little. And as a wretched creature I moaned and cried for feeling of my bodily pains and for failing of comfort, spiritual and bodily.

Then came a Religious person to me and asked me how I fared. I said I had raved to-day. And he laughed loud and heartily. And I said: The Cross that stood before my face, I thought it bled fast. And with this word the person that I said to waxed all sober and marvelled. And anon I was sore ashamed and astonished for my recklessness, and I thought: This man takes in sober earnest the least word that I might say. Then said I no more thereof. And when I saw that he took it earnestly and with so great reverence, I wept, full greatly ashamed, and would have been shriven; but at that time I could tell it no priest, for I thought: How should a priest believe me? I believe not our Lord God. This [Showing] I believed truly for the time that I saw Him, and so was then my will and my meaning ever for to do without end; but as a fool I let it pass from my mind. Ah! lo, wretch that I am! this was a great sin, great unkindness, that I for folly of feeling of a little bodily pain, so unwisely lost for the time the comfort of all this blessed Showing of our Lord God. Here may you see what I am of myself.

But herein would our Courteous Lord not leave me. And I lay still till night, trusting in His mercy, and then I began to sleep. And in the sleep, at the beginning, I thought the Fiend set him on my throat, putting forth a visage full near my face, like a young man's and it was long and wondrous lean: I saw never none such. The colour was red like the tilestone when it is new-burnt, with black spots therein like black freckles fouler than the tilestone. His hair was red as rust, clipped in front, with full locks hanging on the temples. He grinned on me with a malicious semblance, showing white teeth: and so much I thought it the more horrible. Body nor hands had he none shapely, but with his paws he held me in the throat, and would have strangled me, but he might not.

This horrible Showing was made [whilst I was] sleeping, and so was none other. But in all this time I trusted to be saved and kept by the mercy of God. And our Courteous Lord gave me grace to waken; and scarcely had I my life. The persons that were with me looked on me, and wet my temples, and my heart began to comfort. And anon a light smoke came in the door, with a great heat and a foul stench. I said: Benedicite Domine! it is all on fire that is here! And I thought it had been a bodily fire that should have burnt us all to death. I asked them that were with me if they felt any stench. They said, Nay: they felt none. I said: Blessed be God! For then understood I well it was the Fiend that was come to tempest me. And anon I took to that [which] our Lord had showed me on the same day, with all the Faith of Holy Church (for I beheld it is both one), and fled thereto as to my comfort. And anon all vanished away, and I was brought to great rest and peace, without sickness of body or dread of conscience.