| In this blissful Showing of our Lord I have understanding of two contrary things: the one is the most wisdom that any creature may do in this life, the other is the most folly. The most wisdom is for a creature to do after the will and counsel of his highest sovereign Friend. This blessed Friend is Jesus, and it is His will and His counsel that we hold us with Him, and fasten us to Him homely evermore, in what state soever that we be; for whether-so that we be foul or clean, we are all one in His loving. For weal nor for woe He wills never we flee from Him. But because of the changeability that we are in, in our self, we fall often into sin. Then we have this [doubting dread] by the stirring of our enemy and by our own folly and blindness: for they say thus: You see well you are a wretched creature, a sinner, and also unfaithful. For you keepest not the Command ; you do promise oftentimes our Lord that you shall do better, and anon after, you fallest again into the same, especially into sloth and losing of time. (For that is the beginning of sin, as to my sight, and especially to the creatures that have given them to serve our Lord with inward beholding of His blessed Goodness.) And this makes us adread to appear before our courteous Lord. Thus is it our enemy that would put us aback with his false dread, [by reason] of our wretchedness, through pain that he threats us with. For it is his meaning to make us so heavy and so weary in this, that we should let out of mind the fair, Blissful Beholding of our Everlasting Friend. | |